... not a phase.

i desperately wish it was, because forgetting about you would be so much easier than this complete loss of control. i tell myself i won't do this, won't do that and i sure won't let myself get caught up on you. but everytime i see your face i lose any control i have ever had. and when you smile, i'll always smile. and while you're away, i'll still think about you. i don't want to. but i will.