hopeless.

i'm not going to deny or try to hide this at all..
he honestly turns me into a giggling little schoolgirl that can't stop smiling/giggling to actually speak to him.


i cannot wipe the smile off my face whenever i think about his funny little smile/he's around/he messages me. :]]]

i never told you;

but its all in your goodbyes.

errr

probably never going to happen again.

nothing short.

life is actually nothing short of awesome right now.
of course there has been the odd curve ball thrown recently, what with max's passing and always being very alone right now due to having an empty house for a alot of the past week..
but despite that, life is being good to me at the moment.. sort of.

... not a phase.

i desperately wish it was, because forgetting about you would be so much easier than this complete loss of control. i tell myself i won't do this, won't do that and i sure won't let myself get caught up on you. but everytime i see your face i lose any control i have ever had. and when you smile, i'll always smile. and while you're away, i'll still think about you. i don't want to. but i will.